it is seriously down pouring right now and i am pondering skipping the brick outside today - in favor of spin class followed by treadmill run. now i am not usually one to run inside when it rains - i mean i live in the pacific northwest after all - it gets wet here, we tend to get some rain - but this is a down pour and we usually get like misty drizzly rain, that i would be totally cool with…ugh but this rain and wind is just not making me happy.
on separate note i made some over night oats with coconut milk last night then added a little bit of honey and wow - it was so good!!
ok - gonna go cross my fingers now in hopes the rain lets us as i would so much rather be outside than inside on a spin bike!!
well actually it is still dark here in seattle :/ i totally didn’t set my alarm last night like i thought i did, but i apparently don’t sleep past 6am anymore so there’s that….
today i was going to run, but now that i am awake i think a rest day is in order. my right calf was cramping last night and i have a weird pain in my left foot - i think taking a day off will be good for me. tomorrow i have my first brick of the season and i’m actually pretty excited about it. it isn’t a long one since it’s the first of the season, but still it’ll be fun - and yes i just said fun when i was talking about a brick workout :)
it’s just annoying and frustrating and i stepped on the scale today and was a bit alarmed that it was down another 2lbs - i’m all for weight loss, but it needs to be healthy - i don’t think i am eating enough right now and need to remedy that.
other than that i just keep doing my thing with the spinning and the running and the lifting and it makes me happy. it’s weird i keep feeling weaker and things keep feeling harder - however, i am just coming to the realization that it is because i am using heavier weights and pushing harder than i have ever been in my life. i seriously can’t express how good i feel in my own skin right now. i am loving it so much. i never feel sluggish anymore, in fact i am pretty much a ball of energy these days - i’ve even been waking up before my alarm goes off - even the 5:30am one…i just woke up at 5am today and was like, um ok i guess i’ll get up now instead of trying to sleep for another 30minutes. i’m so happy with all the progress i am making and can’t wait to see how much further i can go…this has become my lifestyle now and as far as i can see it’s not going to change.
seriously like everything hurts right now! my ass and hamstrings from all the deadlifts and my sides like by my ribs and my pecs and shoulders and back from all the push-ups and then my shoulder cause well it’s my shoulder and it hurts…oh yeah and my quads they hurt too….so much with the hurt!
why oh why did i think doing a speed workout on the treadmill this morning was a good idea?? i have to be an assistant soccer coach after work today too and i have to run around a field with a bunch of kids - and then tomorrow is spin again and peak performance class - oh man!!
i currently am icing and waiting for my dixie cups to freeze so that i can ice massage it. other than the shoulder thing i had an awesome workout this morning - after spin class with T i then got to get my ass kicked by T - i brought him a muffin, but that only seems to make him work me harder :/ nah, i’m kidding i love the ass kicking so very much!
the whole 1% down thing has made me so very happy and it is something i really need right now. to know that there is something that i am doing right in my life at this moment is pretty great :) i have to say the whole 2lb fat lose 1lb muscle gain i can really tell - it may of not changed the scale much, but i can notice it in my clothes and when i look in the mirror. i really am fortunate to of found a trainer that can push me in the right way to help me achieve my goals. i’m sad he won’t let me swim right now, but i know it is for the best and it’s just because he cares (still sucks though).
i really feel like i am hitting a stride with my training and weight loss right now - i haven’t really craved cheat meals too much and i allow myself at least one a week (max 2), but i have found if i don’t want it i just don’t eat it. i’ve really been getting in tune with how different foods affect me - like if i eat nightshades too much they mess with my digestion. i just feel pretty awesome with what i am doing and can’t wait to see how it progresses.
we did body fat % today and i am down one whole % from two weeks ago. apparently that means i am down 2lbs of fat and up 1lb of muscle! woot! i am super f’n stoked about this! it is so awesome to be able to see the progression happening. now if my shoulder would stop hurting and just get better already that would be nice - i totally aggravated it last thursday and it is just not happy right now at all. we tried to do some dips tri dips and i did two and was like nope, gotta stop - so we stretched and stretched and did a bit of massage (that was so nice) and T is pretty worried about it and isn’t too happy that i am injured right now - but at least i can still work my legs pretty hard. i am taking T’s advice and stretching throughout the day as much as i can and also am going to the store later to get some dixie cups to fill with water for ice massage later this evening…it will get better i just need to take care of it - which means absolutely NO swimming right now!!! (yes it is killing me a little)
due to the complete lack of sleep i came home early from work and have been a super lazy ass all day - aside from doing some work emails all i have managed to do is cook some eggs and then make some muffins and the muffins were tiring - whew. i decided to split the batter and make the usual boring blueberry muffins as they have become a staple and then i decided to make apple cinnamon and damn they are yummy!! ok they are a tiny bit dry and i do think that next time i will put in more effort and cook down the apple a bit with the cinnamon before mixing it all in the batter - i think that will be the trick!
tomorrow is spin class and then workout with trainer (which i am sick of typing out and referring to him as “trainer” so we are going to now just go with T). it is also body fat testing again - i am actually down four pounds since we started working out although after the guinness and grilled cheese of yesterday who knows where it will be at - i also desperately need to go food shopping tomorrow night!!!! it is of the utmost importance i not only need eggs, but i need some veggies, turkey, fish and perhaps pork chops - oh and bananas!!!
seriously! i am so tired, but am so awake all at the same time - i think my mind has stopped fully functioning. i don’t want to sleep now, since i have to be up at 5:30am for a pretty solid 2hr ass kicking at the gym and if i sleep now it will mess up my sleep tonight. i got down to Davis, CA and went straight to the mondavi center for the show then ended up at the irish pub for that grilled cheese and guinness and then hung out in my room for some and read and watched tv and thought. i tried so hard to sleep and couldn’t - i found myself watching star trek the next generation until 2am and then finally slept for a bit until i had to be up at 3:45am to get my airport ride and now it is 3:45pm and i am just tired - but the good news i am not starving anymore :)
I may of gotten my workout in this morning - but I am now sitting at an Irish up in David, CA all by my lonesome with a book and I may or may not be drinking a Guinness and just ordered a grilled cheese sandwich ;) everywhere else liked weird and this seemed to work out ok. Oh yeah and everyone is college age or in their 50s in this town - I feel old and young all at the same time. I so wish I was going home tonight and didn’t have to wait until tomorrow am - oh well. I do get to hitch a ride to the airport with a bunch of Aussies at 4:30am tomorrow though - fun times :)
You guys I got through airport security in like 2 minutes and now my flight is delayed - I am so bored right now! I really wish I didn’t have to go down to CA to see a show today. It is actually a beautiful day here in SEA and it’s apparently raining in sacramento :(
I’m not sure why I even bother painting my nails sometimes - did it last night and they are already all chipped and wrecked. Oh well…yes this is turning into a random post.
I’m glad I got my workout in this morning and I was looking though my workout log and trainers notes cracked me up - it would say medicine ball throws w/tommy or hamstring stretch w/tommy - um really who else am I doing this with??
so right before typing this i rubbed my eye with my finger and i just cut up some jalapenos - so ouch, very, very ouch!!
so i am a cooking godess today. i made some zucchini with some super tiny diced up jalapenos and a tiny bit of olive oil and cilantro. then i cook up some sole in the same pan served on top of a bit of quinoa and had a side salad of baby greens and baby spinach with avocado and dressing made of honey, lemon juice, olive oil and crushed red pepper flakes. OMG it was soooo good!!!
i have to fly down to Davis, CA to go see a show for work tomorrow and no matter how hard i tried i wasn’t able to get a flight back the same day - so i have to stay the night - i so would of rather done it all in one day, but the only way i could was to fly from Davis, CA to Portland then have a 12hour layover in Portland and that just seems super crazy silly since you can drive to seattle and back like 3 times in that amount of time.
i decided to weight myself the other day and am down two pounds in the last two weeks all thanks to me listening to trainer - i’ve been super on with my food and workouts and i feel awesome!! like crazy super awesome - i have energy like crazy and i feel like the working out is really starting to show!
so i had this grand plan that i would go for a ride and then lift weights. i did go for a ride about an hour where the end was all up hill for like 25 blocks - it was cold but sunny and i am happy and feel good that we rode. it wasn’t my hardest workout but they can’t all kick my ass completely to exhaustion - i get that 2-3x a week as it is i think some do actually need to be easier…it was a good ride and i felt good through it. i really focused on my pedal stroke a lot and it is getting so much better - as trainer would say i was “recruiting my glutes” for the ride, especially while going up the hill. i could hear his voice in my head while going up the hill telling me to use my glutes and hamstrings and drop my heels. it is definitely working and i am getting stronger.
i however didn’t get to the 2nd part of my plan - i had planned to do some weights and stuff and went to the gym and totally forgot that there is a class in the space that had all the stuff i needed for my workout until 9am - well i was there at 8:30am and hunger ended up winning out and i decided to go home and make some protein pancakes - chocolate banana to be exact - they ended up a little dry, but not too bad - i think the apple sauce is the key for moisture ;)
it’s 6am and i was supposed to go on a ride with my friend @ 7am this morning nothing huge just an hour long ride - then i was going to go the gym and lift weights. i woke up before my alarm and leaned over to turn it off before it went off and hey look two texts from my friend that say she is not getting up to ride with me. now she did pick the 7am time - she said she could do this afternoon, but i have already planned my day and now can’t do this afternoon. so yes i will still go for a ride, may wait until a little after 7am though since you know i can now :)
it’s just kind of annoying to me that someone would pick a time to go on a training ride and then at 11pm text their friend and say they aren’t going….i supposes i sacrifice more to train for things than other people and i am ok with that - i have turned into this person would would rather go to sleep early on a friday night so i can get up early and train and that is who i am these days and i am ok with that.
EDIT: she just texted me and she is up! we are riding together now!
i figured that since trainer said i am not allowed to swim for a bit until the shoulder feels better and since it is finally FINALLY!!!! nice and sunny and warm-ish out today i would run and run i did. the dog is now exhausted ;) we did 4 miles and there were some serious stairs at the end of it and the pup was dragging a bit - i felt bad for him, but he made it and is now sleeping :)
trainer texted this morning to tell me to take care of my shoulder since i won’t see him until tuesday - i think it is concerned i may do something stupid - i assured him that i wouldn’t swim at all and would ice and stretch it.
so my left shoulder is a bit messed up and trainer has said to take a break from the swimming :( i really, really wanted to go this morning, but i have been listening to him on everything else and it is working so i am listening to him about my shoulder too. he was very unhappy that it was bothering me - it just makes my arm feel all weak right now and actually, perhaps ironically, felt better after swimming on wednesday morning. however, after doing some planks and shoulder presses last night it was all weak feeling again and sore - it just feels not right, it doesn’t hurt really bad at all, just feels weak…oh well - perhaps i will run today ;)
woo! it has been a week…started with an ass kicking on sunday night from trainer. monday no work out…tuesday morning, spin and followed by ass kicking by trainer…wednesday 1hour in the pool…so far thursday spin and then tonight peak performance ass kicking. i am feeling good and my eating has been so on track it is crazy! i kept track of my food all last week and trainer looked at it on sunday and said he was jealous - i did then reward him for the ass kicking with a blueberry muffin from the last batch i made - i changed it up a tiny bit and they were beyond perfect!! i used 2 cups of almond flour and 1 cup of oat flour and they were AMAZING!!!!!!! he said he would gladly take more muffins cause those were made with love and the good stuff :)
ok off to work now - see ya all after the ass kicking
oh yeah in other march madness news - michigan state is tonight!!!! GO GREEN!!!!
so things have been a bit - well off in my life of late and i have decided to start a personal separate passworded blog to deal with that all. you are invited to read if you wish…it will be honest and not about fitness - oh sure it may creep in every now and then. i feel like i need to do this to help me get somethings out of my head as i have a problem with being in my head to much and talking (or writing) about things helps me clear my head and sort things out. i don’t want to make this blog about that as this blog is about my fitness goals and other things that just plain make me happy - sure i get introspective at times on here, but it is usually about fitness or how i feel in relation to beauty and stuff like that…
so that said if you are interested in following shoot me an ask and i’ll send you the link and password - just know it is not going to be all unicorns and rainbows over there.
so i may be M.I.A for a bit - got some shit to sort out in my life.
but have no fear food and exercise will be all ok - actually it is all helping me keep myself together and stuff like that - so that’s a good change - instead of wallowing and eating my feelings i am working out harder and sweating more and eating better :)
well not really - i mean halfway to what…this is a rest of my life thing and the february challenge that so nicely lead into the march madness challenge is just a nice way to take 30 days to make a change in life and have it stick - they say it takes 20 days to make a habit so these 30 days help to cement it in!
anywho, just got back from spin and i think either it was raining over my head or i fell into a lake somewhere during our spin class - seriously though the amount of sweat was kinda awesome, like i was soaked - my hair is still wet actually - haven’t made it to the shower yet as i needed to put some protein into my body before showering - gotta take care of the machine if you want it to take care of you :) and i was starving!!
tonight is peak performance class, which i know will kick my ass - so that will be fun :)
*you could also do a 1/2 cup honey or a 1/2 cup coconut crystals or 1/2 cup maple syrup
2 large eggs
1/2 cup either olive oil or coconut oil (melted)
1 1/2 cup dark chocolate chips or chunks (i used chunks)
so yeah you are supposed to do the dry in one bowl and mix and the wet in another bowl and mix then mix it all together - but i am lazy and do the dry in a bowl mix it some and then start putting all the wet stuff in and mix with the handy dandy kitchenaid stand mixer (or a hand mixer)
then fold in the chocolate chips
preheat oven to 375 and bake 10-15 minutes. enjoy - but not all at once ;)
so i got really bummed about the whole body fat thing that happened on sunday (see this post for reference) and i have had a really hard time sleeping the last few nights so i’ve had a lot of tossing and turning and awake time to think about it.
here is what i’ve figured out. despite having a higher body fat than anticipated by either myself or my trainer - i can still run longer, bike harder, swim faster and lift heavier than a lot of the “skinny” people out there. my goal is not to chase some corporate idea of beauty that has been pushed down my throat for the last 34 years - i am actually very happy with my body right now, i am in better shape than i have ever been in my entire life and i am happy. what i am chasing is the best self i can be - i want to be stronger and faster…i want to PR my next olympic distance tri, ride almost 200 miles in two days and do many other crazy things (some day mt. rainer i am coming for you).
besides i’ve been told i was beautiful twice this month by two different people (neither of which i am sleeping with ;)
so i am looking at bikes and i went to a couple of bike shops around town today to see what they have. since i truly love my masi i searched on their site for dealers in the area for an aluminum frame as opposed to my heavy steel cx uno. now i don’t know how you all feel about your bikes shops in town, but we have, well we have a lot of them and some are just not the vibe i like. the type of shop that puts you in a bike that is to small - yep happened to me a few years ago before i knew anything about bikes (don’t know a lot now, but do now know what to ask and what i need). so far in the last couple of days i have been to four bike shops looking around at what they have.
bike shop one: swarmed by people asking to help me (i really think they work on commission) but no one really listened and tried to sell me the super low end bike and kept telling me i needed a smaller size (hmmm - same bike shop that sold me the bike that was too small a while ago)
bike shop two: nice guys, actually bought my masi cx uno there, but just didn’t have what i was looking for at all.
bike shop three: um no one asked if they could help me at all - actually couldn’t find someone that worked there other than the guys fixing the bikes
I’m feeling a bit like goldilocks here now that i read this :)
bike shop four: now i never knew this shop existed and it was way crazy tiny, but the owner was super nice and took a lot of time talking to me and suggested some bikes and told me some to not look at (even a brand he sold) we even measured arms since he didn’t believe me when i said i had freakishly long arms - we measured they were the same length as his (yeah he was taller than me).
so the moral of the story is don’t go to just one bike shop and ask questions and know what you are looking for - have a found a bike yet - nope. do i have some ideas - yep:
masi vincere and a raleigh revenio 3.0 - could there be other that pop up - sure i suppose…i’m going to talk to some of my bikey friends too and see what they think too.
and now it is almost time for bed as i have been exhausted all day - i don’t sleep well when the guy is out of town and not sleeping and getting up at 5:30am for a 2+hour work out makes one a tired pup…yawn.
so got up at 5:30am - got to the gym by 5:50am - did my stretches as told by tommy to do before spin class - then spin class - it was so hard at like 75%-85% for most of the class i was beat afterwards - but no rest for me off to the weights i get to go after the spin class. i did the same workout that kicked my ass on sunday night and yeah it kicked my ass again, but i felt like i did some of it better and some of it worse - the box jumps almost killed me as my legs were (and still are) toast by then. but i suffered through it and know i got stronger both physically and mentally because of it :) and i didn’t even get to slack off at all since tommy’s client didn’t show up he ended up coming up stairs for bit when i was in the midst of my work out and yeah lets just say there was no slacking to be had :) not that i was going to but you know i was tired and hungry to the thought may of crossed my mind just a tiny bit…
i’m coming more to terms with the whole body fat percentage thing - it was a bit disheartening at first, but things i have noticed recently is my favorite pair of jeans is starting to get a wee-bit bigger in the waist and way tighter in the thighs (yeah, i’m ok with that) and since i am still on scale ban until march is over who knows what may happen by the end of the month. i am definitely putting in the work and am maintaining a very clean lean and mean diet :)
so i kinda really do love the bike i have right now - it is a masi cx uno, but it is a steel frame and damn that sucker is f’n heavy!! so i kinda really want another masi and the one i want is around $1200 - which for a bike is fine and all, but i need to sell my current bike in order to be able to afford a new bike…i am hoping i can get like $800 out of my old bike - looks like i have to go to craigslist and start putting my bike up for sale….it’s always such a hassle selling things on craigslist :/ but i know i will get more money out of it there and unless i can find the bike i want at one of the used bike store near us that is what i am going to have to do…i think i know what i am doing this weekend - cause right now it is pouring rain and there is no way i am test riding any bikes in this weather.
March Madness: Day 11 (ass has been sufficiently kicked)
so you guys i don’t know how well i am going to walk tomorrow - my legs are already hurting and it has only been about two hours since the trainer date with tommy. it was pretty awesome though and i was sweating buckets which always feels great! we did a ton of stuff and tommy wrote it all down and i have to do it again on tuesday. the last thing we did was these short box jumps where you start in a squat and finish in a squat and don’t really come out of the squat at all and my legs are feeling it right now. tommy said his goal was to kill my legs and i think know he succeeded in doing that - i am sucking down water to help push all the crap out of my body and muscles.
one of the most interesting things (and annoying things) was we did a body fat percentage (ugh!!) so here are the current state - 170lbs @ 33% body fat…that equals 56lbs of fat and 114lbs of lean - it felt good that tommy was shocked as he didn’t think i would of been there based on the way i move - but it is what it is and i am on the path to change it. our goal is to get down about 18lbs of fat and put on 12lbs of muscles (or something like that i didn’t right that part down and i was super hungry and shaking a bit at the time). he doesn’t want me to get below 155lbs and thinks that 160 is a better place for me to be over all.
he wants me to write down what i eat for a while, no calorie counting, but just writing it down so we can see whats going on. i am pretty stoked to have him in my corner and that he is willing to train me on the side for cheap.
i got a new little notebook for all the workouts and notes and stuff. the first thing i did was write my favorite poem in it. Robert Frost’s The Road Not Taken - the last line is my favorite and will be part of my next tattoo “Two roads diverged in a wood and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.”
so off i go to continue on my journey of being the best me i can be - to take the road that most people don’t travel down - to sweat and suffer and hurt, but it will be all worth it - actually it is already all worth it :)
oh and speaking of March Madness - since there is another march madness going on as well - i just need to say WOOHOOO!!! go BIG TEN i am one happy Spartan today! i can’t wait for the tourney to start!!!
I got our for my first ride on a bike outside in a long time. after lavaman last year my hip flexor was so messed up from not having a proper (or efficient) pedal stroke that i had to get off my bike for the summer and work on strengthening my legs (and butt) and working on getting a more efficient pedal stroke that used the big strong let muscles and stopped using my hip flexor - it has taken some serious time and to be honest i am still working on it (i think i always will be) and since i was marathon training in the summer it was ok to not be on the bike so much (or not at at all)…but now it is time to start tri training and getting my butt on the bike outside on the weekends and out of the spin class.
9am this morning i met my friend (who is also doing the tri with me) and we took off. i started off so slow as my legs warmed up and i didn’t know if i was going to be able to get faster at all…it was only 13mph! and then it happened, my legs warmed up and i was off between 16-17.8mph - we only had a short ride planned as we are just beginning the training it the ride was more to just get out of the gym and back on a bike outside. we did 30minutes out and back for a 1hour ride and it was great although it did make me realize how f’n heavy my bike was!!! i love my bike i really do, but it is not build for speed in any way shape or form and i didn’t realize it until now, now when i am strong enough and efficient enough to really feel what it is like to ride a bike…..so i think it is time to get rid of the tri bike that i hate and the masi that i love and get one good, light, fast bike that will take me from triathlon, to work, to century ride and back again.
last night was a cheat meal - after the super fancy lunch of salmon and some aki poke (mmm ahi!) my friend took me out to dinner for a belated birthday dinner and we went to bastille, it is a french restaurant with super great food. i had some sort of bean gratin dish that had leeks and fennel in it and we also shared some kale gratin that was amazing!! oh yeah and i had one drink ;)
today food has been on - this morning some clean pancakes and then the bike ride and right after a protein shake to get those muscles repaired - then a nap and i just had some eggs and spinach with black beans and salsa and a little bit of guac!
tomorrow tommy gets to kick my butt and i have to find a new water bottle as i may have driven off after biking today with it on the roof of my car and shockingly it was not there when i got home :/
how i love the pool - i can just keep swimming and swimming…after yesterday the best thing was getting in the pool this morning and getting my body and muscles stretched out. i still feel stiff and a bit sore, but better than when i work up this morning :)
oh damn today kicked my ass to new levels of kickedness (well, that’s a new word)…this morning 6am spin class and i so can’t remember what we did all i know is there was lots of sweat and it was hard!
then off to worky-work i went and actually got a lot done - got most of next season booked and done today and that is pretty awesome! of course i did have a tension headache by the end of the day and it is apparently back again :/
then came home, changed and off to peak performance class - got handed (yet again) a heavier weight than i thought i could handle - we did three different circuits each lasting for 15minutes - circuit one was goblet squats with kettle bell, then jump squats, then some other jumping thing that i have no idea what it was called, then v-ups - there was a set amount for each thing and we had to go through each circuit as many times as we could in 15minutes….circuit two was heavy weight backward lunges, then alternating switch jumping lunges, then knee ups (hang from pull-up bar and bring knees to elbows - or as far as you can get it) then TRX plank ab thingys (i know right such technical terms i have going on here)….circuit three was one legged burpees, some thing where we had to jump onto a step over the step and back (yeah i can’t really explain it, but it was hard on the calves - in a good way), then super slow squats and finally frog jumps….oh yeah then we got to do 25minutes of strength targeted spin class ;)
i am now super tired and if none of that made sense - it’s due to how crazy tired i am right now…..oh how good the bed is looking right now :)